A Book – I just want to Write – I want to Reach

Yesterday I found myself thinking about this blog, why I started it. What was my intention on doing so. I wanted to circle back to that because the “why” still exists. I really want to write. To build people up. This was and still is my intention with this blog. When I submitted a small portion of this as a manuscript, I was told they wanted to publish my book, it would cost me though, $3000+  which is not them publishing for free which was what was stated. I guess I should have read the fine print.

Proverbs 11:25 Amplified Bible   25  The generous man [is a source of blessing and] shall be prosperous and enriched, And he who waters will himself be watered [reaping the generosity he has sown].

My heart broke when I realized this was not a free publication. It totally took the wind out of my sails. I did some research about what to do to get published and a blog was suggested. Weeks later I got more confirmation about it from a group of people who do publishing frequently. I really wish I would have had the guts to ask about that during that meeting. I think I had lost my confidence in my skills and my ability to put out a quality book.

Do I think the entries here are good, yes I think some are totally better than others. Then there are some that I wrote just for me, to help with feelings I was having at the time of writing. Writing gives me peace about certain situations. I do pray someday that I will be able to print and publish this book, my dream is not lost. It is just on hold.

I did in the mean time get on Biblegateway.com as a guest blogger but I don’t know for sure that any of my blogs have been out on their website. That would truly be amazing.

Psalm 19:7  NIV  The law of the Lord is perfect, refreshing the soul. The statutes of the Lord are trustworthy, making wise the simple.

I have not lost the want to write a book or more, a series of devotional books. Even one day maybe writing about other things. I started writing a journal for my grandchildren, I started it before my oldest grand daughter was born, I began when I found out my daughter was pregnant, I wanted to tell her and eventually them, how much I love them, about me, about family they never got to meet and more. Things I wanted to pour in to them with something tangible, something they could read and re-read. It is still a work in progress, I now have three grand-children so I’ll have to print 3 or more copies of this book. I do hope it will give them a larger sense of me and who I am, what I think and how I feel. Especially about family and then.

Hopefully this will be another piece of me that they can read and appreciate. It is my great hope that this book will be something I, and my family and friends can be proud of.

So why, why write, why devotionals? Well, many years ago I would find devotionals and send them to my small group. My hopes were that it would lift them up and make a good start to the day. After searching, signing up for a ton of different devotionals, I started thinking I could and should write my own. Not that mind could or would be better than the ones I found, not necessarily but I do know that I hoped and prayed that mine would be uplifting and good for at least one or two, a few reading. Maybe even folks would want to share them, hoping they would refresh someone else.

Proverbs 11:25  A generous person will prosper; whoever refreshes others will be refreshed.

So why do this? The main reason is this. I believe God gives us a gift or in some cases many gifts, some people have the gift of gab, some have the gift of being artistic, some are athletic, some can write. I wondered for a long time what my purpose is / was and as I thought and prayed over what is mine, I first thought my purpose was being a small group leader. I held on to that for a good bit of time until I realized that was a small part of what the real gift is. God, I believe, gave me the gift of being an encourager. I came to realize that the small group leader was part of me being able to encourage others. I believe I was good at this and realized I wanted to do this far beyond small group, which stopped years ago. Hence, that was just a small portion of my purpose.

I remember feeling like there is always something good you can find in people. You just have to look and you’ll see. Having this sort of heart creates in you a person who wants to always do more, say more, help more. So, this is the reason for wanting to do this book. I just know, I pray that it is published and does just that. Encourages someone, more than just one – many.

Dear Heavenly Father,

I know that what does or does not happen with my writing is on Your time. I leave it to you and trust that when it will happen will be when You believe is best. I humbly ask that You allow someone to see this that can and will lead to a publishing. You’ve said to pray for the desire of my heart and this is it. I would love this book to publish so that it may encourage others. Bless them. Also, as I go forward with more entries, please give me Your words, words that will help people, love on them. Just what they need. I thank You for hearing my heart, I thank You for moving on my behalf and I pray all things in Jesus name - AMEN